It all started with a slightly less than usual morning. Every morning they go out for a morning walk. Their elder brother usually go out with them, accompanying them. But that morning was a slightly different morning. Because it was a little bit later than the usual going out time. So I asked them, "Let's not go out today."
They protested, they still want to go out. I asked, "Are you sure?" They nodded. I repeat, "Its Sunday and you guys normally stay home on Sunday morning." They ignored. I gave in, "Alright, you can go out ...."
I let them out. After about 1 hour, the eldest brother came back. So I had to go out look for the younger twos. Youngs always want to play a bit longer. After much pursuing, they came back.
As I though the morning risk is over, suddenly they have strokes .....
and both of them died.
Siaw Huang died first without us even say good bye. Then I had chances to save Siaw Bai. I did, for about 6-7 times resurrecting him from his last breath. But eventually he was exhausted and couldn't wake up anymore.
I kept hearing their voice until today even after their funerals. I know logically they are no longer here. But everytime I hear some puppy barks, I couldn't help myself to wake up in the middle of the night, walked down and see if they are back.
I couldn't think of any other day of my life worse than this .... this happened 1 day before Father's Day ....
It was like just yesterday ...
Sometimes they even play dead ....
